How Does It Feel? I Wonder...

I was just sitting here thinking about what it would be like to be thin.... I really wish I knew and I am not saying this from a mindset of OMG I WANNA BE THIN! Its me saying this so I just knew what it physically felt like. I know many people who have at one point in their lives been thin and are now trying to lose weight and knows what it feels like so they have that feeling to relate back to, that feeling to strive for... I know it will be a great feeling, but I am not sure exactly WHAT it feels like cause I have never ever been that way. Am I making any sense? Do know that I never ever want to be THIN.... ever! I wanna be healthy and fit :) I will always be a bigger girl, I love my curves and I think that curves are sexy, they are what makes a woman!

Yesterday was alright.... Josh and I ate at the local restaurant that we used to eat at ALL the time... Instead of my usual Chicken fingers and fries I got Chicken Fingers and Salad :) YAY :) Buuuut I did cave and get their famous cheese sticks, but hey... chose your battles right?

To be honest I wasn't going to write a blog today... I was just gonna back off for the day because well... It feels like there is so much going on with weight loss.... I am on You Tube doing my own personal channel and getting back into that, I'm trying out for this kick ass collab channel that I so hope I get on, I have this blog, I log my exercise and calories on my ipod touch, Bodybugg system online and then on top of all of that I started emails with some ladies in my life to lose weight with them.... I guess I just wanted to not write today, but then part of me thought, hmmm do you not want to track today because of what you ate yesterday? No.... thats not it because although I didnt make all VERY smart choices I still made smarter choices, any improvement is better than no improvement :)

Yesterday I ate:

Breakfast

Whole Wheat English Muffin with PB

Glass of Milk

Snack

Peach

Lunch

Spinach with Poppyseed Dressing

Whole Wheat Wrap with ff ham, cheese, mustard and mayo

Snack

4 Crispers

Strawberry Granola and Yogurt Bar

Dinner

Chicken Fingers and Ceaser Salad

Cheese Sticks with Ranch

Oreo Ice Cream Sandwhich

Snack

Whole Wheat Tostitos and Cheese

So.... I do good until about dinner time and then BAM! :P Ah Well, live and learn.... I gotta turn those semi-smart choices into ALL THE WAY SMART :) lol Some may say I am being too easy on myself and you know what that may be the case some days and some nights, but at the same time I al learning the right way for me and also I am not stressing out about it. I think about weight and eating healthy a lot, constantly, but I am no longer letting it cosume me. Although I am working on losing weight and eating healthy right now... number 1 thing is first and that is working on my mental state when it comes to all of this because that in the end is what has sabotaged me in the past! Not this time :) Never again! I am becoming stronger and happier and healthier every day!

Have a good day everyone! Oh and please check out my youtube channel... www.youtube.com/brookejh85 - More videos up soon :)

xx

PS: You know what I really want to work on now? Eating slower, chewing every bite and actually TASTING what I am eating.... New task for me... Drinking my water is getting better and I am ready for the next challange :D