I am SO mad, yet... Im dealing :)

Okay... I weighed in this morning and I don't know exactly how to feel... I am not happy to be honest. I was great this week with maybe a little slip up here and there on the weekend, but overall I did awesome... but nooooooo I ONLY LOST A POUND! WTH!!! grrrrr! That is so frustrating! But then part of me is saying, Okay Brooke.. thats a lb! if you lose at this rate all year you will lose like 52 lbs! lol I just thought I would see better results on my first week.

I cannot let this get to me though, I gotta keep on going and change things little by little. This week, starting today, I am going to continue to count my calories, but my goals for this week is drinking more water and watching my calorie intake closer on the weekend. I am going to allow myself to go one night without counting (Saturday night because I have an engagement party for my cousin) but I am still going to be smart about what I put into my mouth! But mainly this week I am really going to watch my water and make sure i get in at least 6 - 8 glasses a day! :) The lack of loss could very well be from not drinking enough water... I know for a fact that water has a BIG impact on weight loss.

On my iPod I use this application called Loseit to keep track of my calories eaten and I have lowered my allowance from 2050 to 1950 :) I figure lower it 100 for now, at least until I start to exercise more regularily and see what happens then :) I can only take it day by day and play around with it a little more.

I am super proud of myself. Last night Josh and I went grocery shopping, $150 later and I walked out with a grocery cart FILLED with veggies, fruit, water, whole wheat bread products, soup, and some healthier snacks that I plan on fitting into my calories when I eat them. I did score some of the new baked lays southwest rach, which are awesome... and Josh and I got some baked cheetos that we wanted to try, but I am def portioning them out and eating only the suggested serving size :) I love zip-lock baggies! :) Last night and this morning I divided a lot of the different groceries I bought into baggies and wrote the calories on that bag, take the guess work out of it :) I have to finish that tonight, but I did it with everything from baby carrotts to crackers to orangic gingersnaps.

As I mentioned I have to do this day by day, week by week... I have decided that I am going to change one thing every week from here on out..

Week Two - Drink more water

Week Three - Exercise at least 3 days a week!

Week Four - Eat More Veggies

Week Five - Exercise at least 4 days a week!

Week Six - Eat Less Snacks

Week Seven - Exercise at least 5 days a week!

Now some of these may change, but I feel that if I take it bit by bit I will not overwhelm myself. I can do this and you know what whether I see .2 of a lb loss or I see a 5lb loss... as long as it is in that direction then GREAT! :) I am doing this, this is the time... This is my chance! :)

Okay I have gabbed on enough... Yesterday's Food:

Breakfast

1 slice whole wheat bread - 110 cals

1 tbsp smooth pb - 94 cals

1 cup 1% milk - 110 cals

Snack

1 small peach - 51 cals

Lunch

1/2 can tomatoe soup made with milk - 163 cals

8 Saltine Crackers - 80 cals

Snack

1 small peach - 51 cals

Cheese slice and yogurt - 90 cals

Sugar Dropped VERY low again :( ... Emergency snack:

1/2 cup of OJ - 55 cals

2 Melba Toasts and One Laughing Cow Cheese - 62 cals

1 gingersnap (large) cookie - 58 cals

Dinner (I ate out and had fries, BUT it was within my calories and I only had a small! :P)

A&W Mama Burger with Cheese - 450 cals

A&W Small Fry - 260 cals

Ketchup - 44 cals

Snack

Oreo Ice Cream Sandwhich - 250 cals

Okay... so I didnt exactly eat GREAT foods, but I stayed within my calories!

CALORIES CONSUMED - 1930

CALORIES BURNED - 3245

WOW!!!! I burned more than I thought, just plugged my Bodybugg in now! :) YAY ME! :D I guess I did move around a lot more at work yesterday and I went grocery shopping and did some cleaning last night.. Super happy about that!! :) Thats a Deficit of.....

1315 CALORIES!!!! THATS NEARLY HALF A LB :) hehe I can do this!

Anywho! Have a great day everyone!

xx

My day... YAY ITS ALREADY WEDNESDAY!

Helloooooo :) Yesterday was good :) I ate a little more than usual, but I enjoyed and still ate less than I burned :D

Breakfast

Astro Smoothie - 150 cals

Kelloggs Granola Bar - 90 cals

Snack

Oreo Mini Cakesters - 100 cals

Peach - 68 cals

Lunch

Healthy Choice Steamed Chicken Rice and Veggies - 330 cals

Snack

Peach - 68 cals

Rice Crackers - 80 cals

Laughing Cow Light Cheese - 45 cals

Dinner

Perogies - 380 cals

5 sausage rolls - 250 cals

Sour Cream - 60 cals

Snack

Chocolate Popsicle - 70 cals

Naan Bread - 133

Spinach Dip and Hummus - 221

TOTAL CALORIES CONSUMED = 2050

TOTAL CALORIES BURNED =

Other than that nothing much really to talk about from yesterday... The cutest thing though! This morning my brother was in the office cause him and my dad were leaving for a boys fishing trip and he said that yesterday morning Cadence, my niece, woke up and said "Wheres Aunt Brooke and Uncle Josh?" SO FREAKING CUTE :P That made my day hehe

Other than that everything is great :) I need to get my butt in gear and start exercising... I KNOW!!! :) I gotta find stuff I can do while watching my shows at night because we all know that the good shows are starting to come back on lol :)

Well I will be back tomorrow! Have a great day everyone!

xx

My Labour Day Long Weekend At The Cottag

What a weekend! Had a blast with some friends and family!

Some bad news.... some friends that were supposed to come up with us had some unexpected news, she was pregnant and well... she lost the baby :( very sad and very unexpected!

On to the happy part of the weekend... my niece was of course as cute as ever!!!

SEE!!! How freakin cute is she hehe :) It was super fun being able to spend some time with her and as she gets older she just keeps getting cuter and cuter... I am not Auntie Brooke or Aunt Brookie or just Brookie lol

As for eats on the weekend... I wasnt the greatest with watching what I ate although I do know that I made smarter choices and if I had the "bad" food I had less of it :) I did, for the most part stay away from alcohol and had a drink here and there, but only LITTLE amounts and very rarely. I did eat bad foods though that I probably should have stayed away from all together... but you learn from your mistakes. I was also bad at not recording what I ate and not counting my calories while at the cottage....

Exercise was great this weekend though, every day I went swimming, Saturday off the boat... Sunday off the dock and swam out and yesterday, well yesterday was a bunch of fun! Calvin, Scotty, Andrea, Josh and I went for a hike to the grotto off of Cypress Lake. It was a great hike and after the hike there we dove into Georgian Bay at the Grotto... The water was FREEZING! But it was so beautiful and so much fun swimming in the nice bluey green water. It was like swimming in the ocean without the nasty salt water! :) Scoty did a few dives off the rocks, dumbass ;) haha and we swam out pretty far into the open DEEP water.... even swam up to a cave and climbed in and chilled for a bit. After our VERY refreshing swim we hiked back out :) What a good time and a great workout... The body bugg registered the hike being a calorie burn! Not so bad :) Here are some pics of the beautiful hike/grotto/georgian bay :)

What a great weekend :) The weather was BEAUTIFUL! The company was awesome and the scenery was spectacular! Too bad Tuesday had to come :(

Well I better get going... but have a great day and I will be back tomorrow to let you know how today went food wise... AND weigh in on Thursday morning :)

xx

ITS FRIDAY!!! YIPPEEEEE!! :P

So... its Friday! I am off at noon today too which is wicked awesome! Therefore I cannot make this long cause I gotta finish some things before I go.

Yesterday I did great even after eating out and getting ice cream last night! (also I had a request to state the calories of everything I ate... it is too much work to put portions, but I will sometimes)

Breakfast

Whole Wheat English Muffin w/PB

Milk

Calories = 344

Lunch

Salad with grilled chicken, tomatoes, cheese, and ranch

Apple

Calories = 371

Snack

FF Yogurt

Crackers anc Cheese Slice

Calories = 200

Dinner

6" Steak and Cheese Sub

Waffle Cone with Icecream (ONE SCOOP :O SHOCKING ;) hehe)

Calories = 1201 (BUT let me tell you that I think I over estimated the icecream calories... I did this because I couldnt really measure it.... so I allotted 566 calories for the single scoop icecream alone :) )

That was my day...

Consumed - 2116

Burned - 2750

Not bad if I dont say so myself :) I was darn close to my goal and I ate under the rest of the week, I am very proud of myself.

Anywho! as I said before... I am going to the cottage this weekend! YAY :) Have a great weekend everyone and I will post again on Tuesday if I dont make it on the net at the cottage.

xx

Oh what a night! :(

Yesterday was a good day... Until my head hit that pillow, but I will explain that in a bit!

Eating wise I did awesome :)

Breakfast

Oatmeal and Milk

Apple

Lunch

Green Salad with a sprinkle of cheese and italian dressing

Chicken Cutlet

Nectarine

Snack

Granola Bar

Dinner

Grilled Chicken Breats

Shredder Potatoe

Green Peas

Fudgecicle

Late Night Crisis Snack (Will Explain)

Breton Minis w/cheese slice

2x oranges

Okay.... so first off my lovely man of mine took MY car this morning and I left my Ipod in the car and therefore it is currently sitting at his work...BOO SO I cannot tell you EXACTLY how many calories that was, but going from memory it was approx. 1600 calories consumed and 2700 caloried burned... once again a deficit of over 1000 :D yay me!!! second, I suppose you are wondering what I was talking about with last night... Well I went to bed at 11:30, well I went to bed at 10:30 and read for an hour, I couldnt get to sleep. At 12:30 I came to it after getting maybe 5 mins sleep and I was shaking, dizzy, sweating buckets, feeling ill... IT WAS A HORRIBLE FEELING annnd I had the feeling of being WAY past hungry. I went down to the kitchen and checked my blood sugar and it was like 3 something, not good... So that explains the desperate late night snack :) I think that I need to start eating all my calories by the end of the day for now before my body goes into too much shock. Gotta fuel to burn :D ESPECIALLY when I start exercising more frequently and intense.

So... tomorrow, Friday I leave for the cottage. I will try and get on and do some updates on the weekend, but if I dont then I dont :) Im not gonna sweat about it :) My main goal is for this weekend that I just be smart, treat myself but DO NOT over indulge and also stay away from liquor of any kind for the entire weekend... :) I can do that! Plus at the cottage I am naturally more active!

Starting next week I am going to start doing something everyday whether it be the 20 min turbo jam, weights and ab roller, walk at lunch... something! Start off small and go from there!

Well you will hear from me tomorrow! Have a great day everyone! xx

PS: Forgot to mention - I died my hair!! :) I am now closer to my natural colour... Here...

Its going :) YAY :)

Alright so yesterday's eating went well again :) Once again though I wasnt able to check the bodybogg very accurately, BUT on an average day without working out I burn approx: 2700 so....

Calories Consumed - 1550

Calories Burned - 2700

Difference - 1150 :) YAY ME!!! so far this week I have a deficit of over. 2000 calories already!! :) yippee!!! Imagine how great that number will be when I start to incorporate exercise more AND get my bodybugg working again... It is charging as we speak and should be good for a whole week now. I am also looking at getting the watch that comes with it and that allows you to see at any time of day how many calories you are/have burned at any time without logging onto the comp and hooking it up :) SO EXCITED! :)

My food yesterday looked like this:

Breakfast

Oatmeal and Milk

FF Citrus Yogurt

Snack

Spoon of PB

Lunch

Tomatoe Soup

Saltine Crackers

Fibre Plus Granola Bar

Snack

Cereal and Milk

Dinner

Chicken Parm Cutlet

Rice and Veggies

Strawberries and FF Cool Whip

Snack

Mini Fudgesicle and popcicle

This really isnt as bad as I thought... I am still having my treats and enjoying what I am eating, just making smarter choices and watching my portions :D Thats the hardest part for me ESPECIALLY when I sit down with Josh and he has a bowl of cereal that is like 5 cups of cereal in reality and I measure mine out to exactly a cup and I WANT MORE lol But I have to realize that that one cup WILL satify me :) Oh and speak of the devil! JUST now I get a txt from Josh saying that he wants to go to our favorite place tonight and get ice cream! AHHHH HE SUCKS! lol But hey... I can still have it, just have to work it into my day right? We will see I suppose.... Make smart choice Brooke! YOU CAN DO IT :)

Anyways, that was my day yesterday... I will be sure to post tomorrow :)

Its A New Day - A New Month - A New ..... ME! :)

Gooooood Morning :) So... I weighed in this morning. My starting weight is VERY SCARY!!! I am currently the BIGGEST I have ever been... like ever! And I have no idea how I got to this point, but I am here and all I can do about it is change it :) I kick-started everything yesterday and I did awesome yesterday. My goal is to consume on an average day no more than 2000 calories because I burn about 2700-2800 calories on an average day, that is without working out.... When I work out I can burn anywhere from 3500-4500 per day, (oh how i loooove my bodybugg :) ) which on those days I have a little more freedom etc. But overall my goal is to eat no more than 2000 calories in a day and yesterday I ate 1650 calories :) So.... good start for me for sure :)

Here is the breakdown...

By October 31, 2009 I hope to lose 20 lbs :) At this time I will then make my next goal for myself judging on my progress. BABY STEPS :)

I plan to lose weight by... get this, BEING HEALTHY lol It is really as simple as that guys, but we as humans make it so darn complicated!

I plan to drink my water everyday

Eat more fruits and veggies daily

Eat plenty of protein, lean meats etc.

Only eat whole grain breads

Treat myself ONLY occassionally and NOT everyday, every week!

I plan to reward myself with things other than food

Start to be more active and eventually get to a point where I am doing SOMETHING EVERY DAY

No more bingeing and know that this is something a lot more serious and harder to deal with, but will take it day by day

Eat within my calories everyday and plan for big events/special occasions so I do not overeat, but yet don't deprive myself

Anyways... Yesterdays food... I'll repost it all here....

Breakfast:

Apple Cin. Oatmeal with 1% milk

Snack:

Banana

FF Dairyland Yogurt

Lunch:

Gormet Steamers

Kiwi

Snack:

100 Cal Crackers

Slice of Cheese

Dinner:

Mini Meatloaf with vegtable medley rice

Snack:

Cereal with Milk

ice cream bar

I find that I was able to still eat foods I wanted. but in SMALLER portions and therefore did no feel deprived and could still have my snack at night with my hubby :)

I CONSUMED: 1623 Calories Yesterday

I BURNED: 2750 (this is a guess because I forgot my bodybugg today and havent been able to plug it in, but will update this number if it is far off from that :) )

Thanks for reading and see you all tomorrow!