I know it has been a while since I have written a blog, but I am not writing this to send out an appology or to make excuses because it was my choice to not write and if I should apologize to anyone it should be myself.
Overall health wise, to be honest, things have been good! They could be better of course, but they are good. Two weigh ins ago I gained the 3 lbs that I lost prior, but since then I have managed to maintain over the last couple of weeks, which is shocking really.... Yes I may have not gotten too far into my weight loss/towards my goals, but that is no ones fault but mine. I am making improvements and I just need to get more serious, which I plan on... I HAVE A PLAN! lol I'll get to that later, want to update on everything that has been going on in my life.
On the Saturday of the Thanksgiving Long Weekend I lost a friend. Her name was Alina Carere and she was 23 years old. We grew up in the same town and played baseball together for years. She is a beautiful, smart, kind, caring, loving person. She never judged anyone and was so very proud of who she was. She loved all her friends and family and treated everyone with nothing but respect. I can honestly say she was an outstanding human being. On Thursday October 8th she was driving in her car when a van being driven by a 17 year old male ran a stop sign and hit the side of her car. She then hit two trees. Alina was airlifted to the London hospital. There she was put on life support and after breathing on her own and making some progress (apparently just enough to get her organs in good enough shape to be a donor which was something that Alina wanted very much so). She then passed on Saturday October 10, 2009. It really all hit me when I went to the visitation on the Tuesday night... seeing pictures of her in her uniform or at parties and just enjoying life was hard enough, but then seeing her family. Her older brother Adam who I was friends with as well and her other siblings and parents were strong, but you could def see the pain. Seeing Matt, her boyfriend, and his heart ache was almost too much to handle. I had my mom there with me as she too knew Alina through years of baseball and having her over to our house. She was a great support for me there. The funeral was on Wednesday and it was beautiful. It was held at the Catholic Church in town, where Alina and her family attended, she was a very proud catholic. My friend John and I went to the funeral and he was a great support for me at the cemetary and although it was so hard to deal with losing her I did feel better after that... like not only I, but everyone else could let go because she was okay and she was happy. She will always live on in all our hearts!
Thanksgiving weekend, other than the bad news mentioned above, was very nice. We all went up to the cottage... My mom and dad, hubby (josh), brother (calvin), sister in law (andrea), niece (cadence), grandma, grandpa, aunt pat, uncle merv and of course the three dogs! :) It was a full house, but we all had a great time! The weather was nice, cold, but nice! :) The dock got taken out for the winter, some fishing was done of course, many games of crib between my mom and myself, cottage prepped for winter, went to the church service at the Tobermory church, had a HUGE turkey dinner, which was DELICIOUS! :) It was a great weekend spent with family!
Hmmm what else has been going on. OH! I got a virus on my computer and it was a bad one too! Damn bugger completely messed up the whole comp and I had to restore back to factory and therefore had to re-install everything and all my work crap, it was NOT FUN!
Andrea is going to pop any day now and Bucky, which is the nickname that we have for my nephew and she HATES it lol which makes it all that much more enjoyable ;) hehe I know, Im bad! :) Her official due date is November 18th I believe, but it doesnt look like she is going to last that long! We have been over to their house trying to help them prepare and finish renos for when he decides to come out! I CANT WAIT! :)
Cadence is getting SO big... here is the most recent picture I took of her on Monday (Grandma and Grandpa were watching her for the weekend while we worked on renos at Cal's house)...
I heard that Grandma (Josh's Mom's Mom) wasnt doing so well and that she is in the hospital. Him and I havent gotten many updates and what we are getting is mainly from Facebook unfortunetly, but last we heard she is doing better.
Halloween is next weekend and I am so excited about it! I think I pretty much got my whole costume together and it is gonna look super sexy and awesome! I am not going to go into details cause some ppl that read this blog are going to be there and I want it to be a surprise or at least for some ppl a surprise... Anywho, I had a weight loss goal by Halloween and I didnt reach it and to be honest there is no humanly possible way to reach it by then, BUT I am okay with that
NEW PLAN!!! Starting November I am going to be eating less processed and more raw. This means no fried foods, no refined sugars, no alcohol. no nothing! I am not going to be drinking, smoking the cigars while drinking, NOTHING... I am cleaning out this body of crap because I know when I have done this in the past I felt much better! I am not going 100% raw becasue I do not believe that that is a managable thing to do, but I am eating all whole grains, lean meats, and tons of fruits and veggies. Limiting frozen foods/meals and eating out for sure! I have a feeling that someone may thing why start in November and not now!? Well first, cause I want to.... that should be a good enough answer, but I know for some that isn't. I am starting this in November because over the next 10 days I am only going to be home for 4 of them. With all the traveling and visiting and then of course the big party on Halloween where I would like to enjoy a few beverages I think it woul dbe difficult to follow my new rules. I am still eating smart and being sensible and doing all the things I am already doing, but gotta do something else casue THIS is not working, at least not the way I want it to :) I am though happy to report that I HAVE been able to reduce my insulin intake slightly.... So for those of you that think that your successes are only shown on the scale CHECK THIS OUT! lol because this is my BIGGEST accomplishment in a long time and one of the most important things for me to look at. I must be doing SOMETHING right ;) hehe
Congrats to those of you who have been losing weight, keep working hard and keeping it off. To those of you that have been struggling like me, I know... I know exactly what you are going through and where you are coming from! It is not easy, it is a lifelong battle. Some expect me to lose all my weight and change my ways overnight... well this is not going to happen overnight, this is not going to happen in a week, or even a month! Its a lifelong lesson/learning experience and I know that I will get to a place where I am proud and happy of where I am and who I have become and you will to!
Well it has been a stressful, action packed, fun, exciting, sad, crazy couple of weeks, but I came out of it a stronger person as everyone should :) Stronger meaning mentally and emotionally by the way ;) but hey I am sure physically too!! I hope that everyone is doing GREAT and I will be back to record another blog VERY soon! Stay happy and healthy! x
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